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Your grasp had always been strong. Even in sleep, when England slid his hand into yours, you would hold on to him as though your life depended on it. He could snuggle into your sleeping form and you would hug him with all your strength. When the dreams of the past, the all consuming loneliness, overtook him, England only needed to find you. Awake or otherwise, you would comfort him to the best of your ability.

Your silhouette could instantly calm him, as your breathing was always strong and deep. (h/c) spilled over your face, and those brilliant (e/c) eyes were closed but active even in sleep.

But your grasp wasn’t strong now. It was weak and lifeless as you slowly slipped through his fingers. He had known you would die before him, but he had never accepted it. England had always assumed you’d let him try some spell to give you immortality so the two of you could stay together. Or at least that you would have the full life experience of the average adult.

Because he had the provisions, you were receiving top medical care, but it still wasn’t enough. Each day you grew weaker, this disease eating you from the inside out.

And still you smiled. You were still happy as ever, glad to just spend your remaining hours with the man you loved. He stared down at your sleeping form, now twisted lightly in ever encroaching pain. You were still quite strong in spirit, and he didn’t want you to leave his side.

His grip on your hand tightened and you woke. First you groaned in pain, then controlled yourself and dragged a hazy smile to your face to ease England’s suffering on your behalf. “What’s wrong, sweetie?” you asked softly, trying to ignore everything that was happening and spend every remaining second with him.

“You know what’s wrong. Even if you won’t admit it.” he said, rather bitterly. England was really ashamed of himself. He couldn’t even pull it together for you, put on a happy face. He felt selfish and horrible.

But you didn’t feel for yourself. There was no element of self pity. “It’s my own fault. I’ve had more than ten times the joy of a normal person, and the universe finally decided I’d had enough. I’ve been more joyful than anyone else, and it’s all due to meeting you.” you joked, however thinking every word was true. England huffed, looking down at you as you laid in the bed. “Get in here, it’s not catching. At least for you.” you said, patting the bed beside you.

He got in next to you, pulling you into a loose embrace. “Would you...” England started, but stopped mid sentence.

“Would I what?” you asked, loving his caring embrace that had always been delicate. It was like he thought you would break, and it had always been that way.

He sighed deeply, and you could feel it both in his chest and in the breath that tickled behind your ear. “Would you stop pretending this is nothing?” he asked, a lump in his throat at the thought of you leaving him.

You picked up his hand, it being comically large in comparison to your dainty fingers, and held it around yourself, relishing the warm embrace you knew you’d never get to feel again. “Because to you, it ought to be nothing. People die all the time, and you have to expect that.”

“You’re not just people. I love you. More than anything.” he said stubbornly.

England was almost hurt that you thought of yourself as just one of the others. You were special. “And I love you,” you told him, still playing casually with his hand, “but I need you to be strong.”

Strong. That wasn’t what he was. England had suffered so much; he was practically fragile at this point. You were the strong one, and you were leaving him just like everyone had. But...

“I’m sorry,” you whispered, “I really am.” Going on you said, “Even I thought I’d have a little more time with you. I never wanted to leave, but it’s inevitable. I’m sorry; I’m leaving you alone just like everyone else.”

England’s arms tightened around you, “No.” He hugged you rather closely to him now, and buried his face in your hair. “You’re not leaving like all the others. You want to stay, you don’t have a choice. They just left me.”

“I-I love you, Arthur.” you used his human name and tried to focus on keeping your eyes open which seemed almost as difficult as breathing at this point. “I love you more than anything else in the entire world and I need you to know that. You do know that, right, Arthur?”

He nodded, then realized you couldn’t see, “Of course, love. I can’t imagine why, but I know you do. I love you too, more than you can imagine.”

A small smile graced your features as you began to exit this material world, but it faltered as you felt a small tear drip on your head. Your last words came out in a whisper with your final breath, “Don’t cry, love.”
This is the prologue to the Gone: England x Reader. I am officially just trying to finish all of the open fics on my laptop. Get prepared people, there are more than I can count. In fact, I'll go count them just to scare you. More than 20. Puuuhhh... I write too much.

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Hetalia and all its characters belong to Himaruya Hidekaz

You belong to Mother Russia, da?
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DawnMisty Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2014
Reader-chan!!!! No!!!!! (T ^ T)
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CanadaAndAntarctica Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2014
Ayato Naoi (Crying) [V1] Yuzuki Crying Icon Ran Crying Icon So sad!! BUT I LOVED IT THANK YOU
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Drowning-Party Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
FUK... THE FEELS BRO... Danisnotonfire: FEELS 
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eclanish2882 Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
DEM FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!
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Kittygirl144 Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2014
It's weird cuz I'm sick right now lolz!
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IS831fan9 Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:iconsobbplz: :iconcryforeverplz: SO. MUCH. FEELS. TT-TT
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IGame101 Featured By Owner May 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconsobbplz:
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I-am-a-true-Chibi Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Student Writer
NOOOOOOOOO ;~;
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nyanmeowth Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Student Artist
Gaaah! Right in my feels ;n; hug me?
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sateenkaarimursu Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Hobbyist
Komari Kamikita (Crying) [V5] 
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E-Sane Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Nooooooooo!!! He's already cast it on me, thanks to pretty much everyone begging him, I can't die anymore!! (unless he does)
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magalia323 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2014
What? No! I was looking for happy England stories and I see this. I'm going to go sulk in a corner now. *glares*
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phoenixgirl997 Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2014
aawwww my feels...
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:iconphoenixgirl997:
phoenixgirl997 Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2014
aaww my feels....
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Prettytearsfly Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2013
because i didn't need my heart or anything. It's cool. I'm not crying...not...crying
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FaithSparkle Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
This makes me think of ny great aunt. She was like this until I lost her to cancer a couple of years ago. I'm crying so hard right now. I sorry, but your story just brought me to tears. Its so beautiful.Pikachu Crying Plz  
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Sessinara Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Digital Artist
awww....:iconyosukedonotwantplz:
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IndigoCode Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2013
Why you make me sad? Why did I read this if I knew I would be going through two boxes of tissues ten minutes later? What is wrong with me?! 
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This... Sentient Cloud, this is beautiful. It's like my tears are crying because it's so beautiful.

And as an achievement for ability to make me cry bathtubs, here, have a happy Markiplier-
:iconmarkiplierhappyplz:
 
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Fireblade626 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2013  Student General Artist
feels...
Nuff said.
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puttestootes1 Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2013
Sad Angel  *sobs*
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drey524 Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2013
*starts crying* oh my god.. x-(
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dinorex33 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If I were not InSaNe and emotionally numb, I would have cried. *my version of a compliment to the awesomeness that is this epic story*
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Sk8rchic2000 Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Join the emotionally numb club sister/brother.
You would be our fifth member...
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XxMaximumRide14xX Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Student General Artist
AwwX D TT_TT
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ninjakitty365 Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
T^T .... N-no.....
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midnight-nightengale Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's so beautiful it's not helping I just happened to be listening to freaking sad piano music at the same time. It's so sad and I love it.
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meerkatlover27 Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2013
omg this is so sad but I love it!
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coolprincess101 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013
I promised myself I wouldn't cry.......I'm such a cry baby.
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Anga99 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
it was great and you managed to make me cry
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Helkavana Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013
I am not gonna cry, I am not gonna cry, I am not gonna cry... I am NOT gonna cry.. oh god.. I didn't cry ^3^
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666kurai Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
Good. ^^
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Helkavana Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
Hehe, yess ;3
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shygirl254 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you seriously made me cry...it's not fair! i loved this story but my feels are fragile...
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666kurai Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
I'm sorry, love! :icontissuesplz: Thank you, though.
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shygirl254 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
it's fine, i lived to cry another day. thank you for the tissue though
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666kurai Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
You're welcome, love.
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PupWithLuck Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
But England, I don't want to leave you! KILL YOURSELF IF YOU LOVE ME!!!! When we are both dead we can become one again and curse France just like old times. I'm sure flying mint bunny will be there to see you off.
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666kurai Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
Yeah, I don't think he's suicidal...
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PupWithLuck Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
TT-TT I'll miss you Iggy.... Welp that lowers it down to 7
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:icon666kurai:
666kurai Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
Huh?
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PupWithLuck Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
7 of my hetalia crushes they now only have Spain, Romano, Russia, 2pCanada, 2pAmerica, 2pEngland, and Greece. England possibly can join into the little list again.
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666kurai Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
Nice. ^^
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PupWithLuck Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah but i feel so torn, If i had to choose one it would be so hard you know?
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:icon666kurai:
666kurai Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
Yup.
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dedesoswag Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
TT-TT WHY,WHY,THIS FEELZ THEY ARE BACK
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666kurai Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013
Sorry, love.
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dedesoswag Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
(Hugz)it's mkay,but dem feelz
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:icon666kurai:
666kurai Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
Yup.
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dedesoswag Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Everytime dem feels
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Aero-Dragon Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Poor England. :( Great writing, but sad story.
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